Friday, April 16, 2010
i SHOULD be writing my essay. but i haven't been writing this for ages. honestly speaking there have been a plethora of thoughts going through my mind, just that i've been too busy writing (other things ... like... my thesis)...
update on my thesis: it is finished! (not me... the thesis) the process was painful but hopefully necessary. i had to rewrite multiple times and was struggling to remain "christian" (in terms of virtue) throughout the process. in retrospect, i'm glad i prayed that God would use my teacher to lead me and guide me to write... i'm sure that the pain she made me go through was probably that learning process i prayed for. i'm glad i survived! hopefully will thrive (when the results arrive). thus, here (since they wouldn't let me put it in my acknowledgements page), I would like to thank God for:
- for being my number one supporter and partner
- giving me ideas and wisdom to write
- providing respondents
- providing friends and family that support me
- for giving me peace
- for my professor who made me go through A LOT and also for all the smses and verses she sent... I will never forget how she smsed me Jer 33:3...
and a lot more things He did but i haven't reflected on...
so now... i'm writing a term paper... sigh... don't feel like writing. it's a major one. headaches... but i'm sure God will see me through as He has always done...
anyway i would like to reflect on what gy said before we submitted our thesis.
well, he asked ,"how do you reconcile your geographical position with your identity as a christian?"
honestly speaking, i don't see a need to reconcile it? though, perhaps this is how i do it:
well, i'm glad that as the person who does the research, my position does not change (hopefully), unlike what I'm studying. wouldn't it be difficult if both are changing? I would like to see it as God being my ontology and if you don't know already, poststructuralism (geography's version) as my epistemology. but yes... the lens and our identity, the ontology and epistemology are co-constitutive (don't we hate that word now...) aren't they? but perhaps that then is the value of "my version" of poststructuralism. after all, hasn't it been critiqued that poststructuralism is too nihilistic? think of the value it can bring and the potential it has - the same ways others have argued it to be emancipatory - by destabilizing the binaries that most people have formed in their minds. perhaps then, we can open people's minds to consider that there is a God--> beyond that of the impersonal god vs there is no god which is so prevalent in our society. for in that instant where the space unravels there is the potential. after all i would say Jesus was a "poststructuralist" in His own way... at least methodologically speaking... didn't He come to destablize some of the ways the people used to think about their messiah....
enough rambling... haha it's probably just stress... don't throw eggs at me if you don't agree...
back to looking at non-representational theory
holding on to you.
10:10 AM
