miracles are gonna happen.

Saturday, October 06, 2007

Is it hope or is it faith?

I'm still trying to believe that a miracle will happen. sometimes i believe it can and sometimes i simply have no faith. sometimes i just want to drop everything and run away. sometimes i find that even though i want to... i'm stuck

and friends

i love my friends. my friends who are there to listen to me whine. take my thrash. invite me for meals. look after me. make sure i know someone still loves me. friends who try to do their best and still end up messing everything up for you. you still love them.

assumptions

i used to think he knew who i was.. perhaps it is too perfect a picture. What happens when the perfect sky is gone?? and then?

rules

i dislike rules... i'm a rebel at heart... i think tt's why the only one who's ever got me in hand is God. rules... changes that have to be made with committment.. when that happens will i be able to take it? grr... i like flexibility

family

feel bad. i think they are the most left out. actually maybe not. compared to most pple, we have brkfast tgt everyday, dinner tgt at least twice a week. but they are nvr satisfied. there's always something to complain. i love them but i also think they need to realise that i'm 20.

jazz

love it. need to prac harder. exam soon. lee is gonna kill me. recent job prospect. but... someone won't like it. referred to as "this kind of job". prob something i mite do when i'm tired of the system.

everything is so uncertain

yet

God

i've been feeling far from God recently. i realised today on the way home. once again. how regardless of what i am, He still loves me. i can still rely on Him. i can still be me.

and that has made all the difference (that wonderful Robert Frost line)

holding on to you. 9:26 PM