Saturday, September 22, 2007
committment... it's a heavy word isn't it. sometimes u don't think too much about certain things before jumping into it. i would like to think that i think a lot about things before i jump into it. despite the fact that i'm always hopping around with a smile, and have what some call the "retarded" and "funny" look, that makes many think i'm younger than the age i am, i do in fact think a lot. It's just that i dun let it bother me. after all joy comes from within, and outflow from the hope in my life. but i too get tired and i feel like running away.. but i have to stay.. tt's committment for you.
recently i feel like i've been running a long race... it nvr ends.. it's like an endless amazing race where u have to go to stop after stop and do activity after activity. at least there's a winner in that race... in this race sometimes i wonder what i'm doing. i wonder about my choices. ultimately we're all supposed to win (whether we reach by means of crawling, jumping, sprinting etc etc).. it's just what kind of race we are running...
God, sometimes i think i can be so silly... sometimes i think i should just not hope for too much... faith is hoping in what i can cannot see.. but is this faith or pure futility. i wonder God... help me to know Your will. maybe what i need to do is learn to surrender
You give and take awayand Lord i hope i can still say 'Blessed be Your Name'
holding on to you.
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