Sunday, October 29, 2006
Though i have so much stuff to do, i need to blog about this.. cause God has been so faithful to us!!
today, or rather yesterday, saturday, was one really hectic day. Had to write about the hummer and rush to church to set up for the evangelistic gig.
At church we rushed up and down trying to move all the stuff the level 5. After it was half way done, we realised it was going to rain. There was lightning and thunder and the band was there and we had to decide whether we were gonna move a lot of the equipment up. In the end we decided to wait. Joseph rallied the leaders together and we prayed. It was a really cool time of prayer and worship but still there did not seem to have any sign that the rain would let up. I was reminded as we prayed of how when Moses worshipped and raised his arms he had the victory. Felt a strong sense that even as we prayed and worship, our victory was in God. Throughout the prayer, there was a sense of God's peace and His presence was so amazing. I knew and I'm sure most of the leaders' knew we such certainty that He would see us through. And so, Andrea made the decision to move everything up to the 5th floor.
Halfway through moving stuff, Andrea sent me to go lead the prayer for the event. Was quite shock, actually i haven't been leading prayer in a long long time and would have been perfectly happy just moving stuff. Still, i went rather reluctantly and we prayed. I thank God cause He gave me the words to say and we were really moving in prayer. It was then that Andrea came and told me that it was drizzling, midway through the prayer. From my knowledge of geography, it is impossible for rain to stop if there are so many dark clouds and it is drizzling. Since it is a drizzle, it is likely to rain for hours rather than a heavy downpour which could stop in half and hour. At that moment i really didn noe how to pray, "God stop the rain" or "God give us wisdom and favour for an alternative plan". In the end i chose by faith to pray for the former.
I believe that the whole event was in God's hands from the start and truly by faith, and God's mercy, he moved the heavens and it stopped raining. It was amazing, because I knew God had done the impossible for us when it seemed so impossible. We had a clear sky. Completely clear, where we could even see the moon.
Today was a time where we as a ministry stepped out in faith and walked on water, with no backup plan, only wanting to seek God's agenda. God is faithful. I haven't interceded like that for a long time. It really reminds me to pray more and reminds me that prayer is in fact a surrendering of our wills to God and acknowledgement that only He can do all things.
It is time to rise up and pray. Prayer can move the heavens. It is an act of faith.
At the end of the day I was really tired. Because of some programming thing, to go to level 5 (the open-air rooftop) it was necessary to have someone in the lift all the time, was quite amusing. Was manning the lift at the end going up and down from 1st to 5th floor transporting stuff. It was driving me a bit delirious. Keep having to press the door closing button and hold it till the door closes completely (strange system). On the way home, i was really quite off. On the bus everytime i see the door closing, i have this strong urge to press some button till it closes.. so strange...
still...i only have one thing to say... thank you God for today.
holding on to you.
12:22 AM
Thursday, October 26, 2006
went to cut my hair today. was quite funny cause i brought my notes there to study and the hairdresser was nagging at me, telling me i don't have to work so hard and just marry a capable man. thankfully she and the other aunties started gossipping and left me to my own vices in the end. Below are the "truths" they've tried to convince me of:1) Even if you're not so good looking you have a chance at a good man (subtext being...)2) Love does not exist, especially after you get married. Just make sure the guy you marry is capable. Even if he is not rich now, if he is a hardworking lad, he'll make it some day.3) The key to happiness in a marriage is this: when you're courting open your eyes big and notice his flaws, when you get married that's when you start to close your eyes.4) If the guy is handsome you have to share so don't go for looks.5) Women don't have to study so much anyway. You can always be a tai-tai. Just try to aim higher than being a hdb tai-tai...6) If you work you have to look at your boss' face... if you don't work...you have to look at another boss' face (your husband). the one plus point being that you can complain abt this one in his face.7) All aunties and mums are right because they have been through that path.Heh.. the wisdom from the denizens... i should go cut hair more often...met my xiao de kevin today. he thinks i should shower him with more care because i'm being showered wid so much attention by all the older "brothers".. heh .. he just doesn get that the way they show affection is by "bullying" of which i shower similar attention unto him...i miss ian-chan!!! haha.. he keep msging but i feel so sad that the only way we communicate is thru smses.. (of course my bill which i have to watch!!).. hopefully we get to go out before he goes army...
holding on to you.
12:46 AM
Monday, October 23, 2006
As God's fellow workers we urge you not to receive God's grace in vain. For he says, "In the time of my favor I heard you, and in the day of salvation I helped you."I tell you, now is the time of God's favor, now is the day of salvation. We put no stumbling block in anyone's path, so that our ministry will not be discredited. Rather, as servants of God we commend ourselves in every way: in great endurance; in troubles, hardships and distresses; in beatings, imprisonments and riots; in hard work, sleepless nights and hunger; in purity, understanding, patience and kindness; in the Holy Spirit and in sincere love; in truthful speech and in the power of God; with weapons of righteousness in the right hand and in the left; through glory and dishonor, bad report and good report; genuine, yet regarded as impostors; known, yet regarded as unknown; dying, and yet we live on; beaten, and yet not killed; sorrowful, yet always rejoicing; poor, yet making many rich; having nothing, and yet possessing everything. 2 Cor 6:1- 10Met up with brenda today.. hehe.. was a gd session of talking bout stuff and life and fellowshipping and thinking about God. Well that's the verse for today's mentoring.. had to think about to things.. 1. What does it mean to be a co-worker with God. 2. What else do i need to give access to God to... well.. i gave bren some answers.. she thinks God is speaking to me in ways that are so much more then tt.. i guess i need to go pray abt it too.. haiz... a lot of issues to deal with
i admire paul the way he says sorrowful yet always rejoicing, having nothing and yet possessing everything. it's an amazing attitude. if it were me, my first reaction to sufferring would be to run.. honestly... praying tt one day i'll be able to live a life as surrendered as paul.. it's so funny cause it's onli when we go thru such sufferring that we can grow the way paul grew and understand the things paul understands abt God..its inseparable... a huge committment to make and a huge challenge.. hmmz..
something to think about...
holding on to you.
10:08 PM
Sunday, October 22, 2006
i'm so in love with God ....My favourite song now..
From the Inside Out
A thousand times I've failed
Still Your mercy remains And should I stumble again
I'm caught in Your grace
Everlasting
Your light will shine when all else fades
Never ending
Your glory goes beyond all fame
Your will above all else
My purpose remains
The art of losing myself
In bringing You praise
Everlasting
Your light will shine when all else fades
Never ending
Your glory goes beyond all fame
In my heart and my soul
Lord I give You control
Consume me from the inside out
Lord let justice and praise
Become my embrace
To love you from the inside out
Everlasting
Your light will shine when all else fades
Never ending
Your glory goes beyond all fame
And the cry of my heart
Is to bring You praise
From the inside out
Lord my soul cries out
and more excerpts....
So I'll stand With arms high and heart abandoned
In awe of the One who gave it all
So I'll stand My soul Lord to You surrendered
All I am is Yours
and God is..
Everything to me!
He's more than a story
More than words on a page of history.
He's the air that I breathe,
The water I thirst for,
And the ground beneath my feet
He's everything, everything to me!
first time i went to youth svc after so long.. missed my kids... met dan after tt.. sadly i didn't have much to say to him.. and it got a bit awkward after he said some strange thing... anyway went swimming after tt.. was quite funny.. i had so much problem trying to take out my contacts before that... aiyoz... eyes all red now....
holding on to you.
11:36 PM
Thursday, October 19, 2006
today was a very funny day... went to school thinking i could go home earli cause andy san said there was no js lect.. in the end there was.. so ah well.. haha...
anywayz.. i'm so happi!!!!!!! we finished the paper!!! not tt i was doing much about it yesterday.. still....
met cl today... hee grace you'll be glad to noe that your bf's dress sense has improved tremendously... we had a gd time of talking and fellowshipping and talking about politics... he came late which was a bad thing.. cause i went shopping and spent money... haiz... o-kane ga arimasen demo......but i bought nobuta!!! wee!!! so happy... bin and i were ecstatic...
didn go home earli so rome and i couldn go out.. played soccer after tt... jon and joe were capts today... they did the pokemon thing "pikachu i choose u".. nah...they're so funny..joe was like "i choose u jon" and jon went "i choose u joe" so basically nullified la... anyway our team had the lower hand.. 2 big ones and 2 small ones.. joe's team had 4 big ones.. so the ball kept floating arnd our side.. today tio ram a lot of times again..haha.. with greater intensity.. jon was teaching me nonsense abt the benefits of being a girl. some examples
1. Use your hand and cover your face... u'll hand ball but u can use "protecting ur face" as an excuse.. (shows how much guys value aesthetics)
2. having small hands and feet is a gd thing.. no one can see when u touch the ball.. and even if u announce that u have touched the ball.. your team mates pretend that nothing happened.
i own goaled today.. not a gd thing.. and i kept passing to the wrong person.. like hippo and joe... haiz... today was just bad...
oh.. it's not gd to play in the haze...
1. you keep choking
2. when it gets dark.. the ball is grey the haze is grey.. the ball is undercover man...
btw.. brian says u can actually bet on the haze.. like what the index will be at 6pm today.... wat in the world is wrong wid singaporeans???? gambling freaks... oh.. brian's underwear-not-wearing and open flamboyance is freaking me out...
haha.. i think guys get violent when they play soccer.. this is my analysis
jon shouts at pple
ian becomes vicious and tries to cause harm
joe is violent
hippo rams everything and gives the black face
josh's face becomes red and he hits anything
brian if he gets angry.. i'm not sure.. pick a fight wid someone?
rx complains a lot
hao charges at pple
rome.. haha.. cry?
jeff just walks away
hx.. hmmz... pick a fight?
i was bored... after brian joined the match there was not much to defend.. just sit arnd... haha.. joe i think i should take over u in doing all the chronology... hee
later going prata i think...
holding on to you.
8:36 PM
Wednesday, October 18, 2006
woke up late with the bhangra dancing on the roof, the haze choking me as a morning greeting and my mother's sweet voice replacing the alarm clock.. the start of a wonderful day...i've been updating this really often recently.. but today's such a fun day so much write abt it!!! was almost like a holiday la... all the guys are having study break too...studied for japanese, did the admin and met jon for lunch!!! went to eat the nice fish soup thing which had this super long queue.. honestly i dunno why it's so popular.. then jon went to place soccer bets.... sianz.. dunno why they spend so much money on it. jon's theory is tt it helps him keep away and be more excited during a match... watever... betting is still betting... he helped ian place bets too... silly boys... ah well.. lets all hope tgt that barcelona winsanyway.. went back and spent the rest of the time messaging ian.. so long nvr spam messages liddat...he recommended some new anime.. it's really nice!! it's so kawaii!! honestly!! demo kevin says the title doesn sound kawaii.. ok la.. black blood brothers... not nice meh?? haha anyway i read nana last nite.. a bit anyway.. i can't stand hachi but i think i'm like her in a lot of ways.. which makes me hate myself a bit... sometimes i'm really pathetico yar.. dade and i wrote a mail to the prof..haha.. hopefully she likes it... we're so full of crap i tell u...oh.. and today.. sakkaa o shimasu!! played soccer today... in dan's words "it's been a long time" .. yea man... haha.. miss the old times man.. ian and rome fighting and trying to kill each other.. dan saying stupid things, jon bossing pple arnd...hao's voice rox la... so poor thing sore throat.. must thank him from protecting me time and again.. that was the only plus point bout not being on the other team with the rest... o yar.. jeff looks more handsome recently.. must be hair or the specs... rome's hair looks like a bush... hee... oh yar .. brian appeared later in his obscene shirt being a goof ball again.. as ian said "don't worry we have two defenders and brian on the other team" .. dots he's shots are so off la... we spent a lot of time contemplating whether it was "further, furtherer and furtherest"... haha. whole lot of crap..but anyway.. i think the guys have improved a lot.. a lot more finesse in their playing.. i'm amazed i still noe how to kick the ball... haha.. then again.. i forgot the pain of being rammed by the ball... did a lot of stupid things too... 2 highlights.. lol.. 1. ian ran into the tree... so heart pain.. but it was really funny... i'm surprise the tree didn like break he is after all known to be have quite hardy bones... 2. hao scored with jeff squatting at the goal post.. the ball just went over him..haha... and we called it quits for the dayhaha.. no one was playing seriously la.. in the end we just sat arnd and talked nonsense all the way as if there was no tmr... these pple are all behaving like there's no exams.. then again look at me.. today i didn't do anything at all.. haiz.. my essay.. haha.. should go do it soon...
holding on to you.
8:39 PM
Tuesday, October 17, 2006
i'm in a weird mood.. tired... had jazz exam today.. i think i spent too much of my concentration on it... went thru the rest of the day in a daze. i think the music they played during the waiting time for the exam was really nonsense. goodness.. it's a jazz exam and u're playing classical.. straight flat out of gas classical.. u just lose the jazz groove when u enter the exam... u have to start to produce swing out of air once u start... good thing i had my mp3 player.. oscar peterson like totally rocks...
i realised lee rigged my jazz results in the mock exam... makes me feel like crap.. really... now tt i've found out..gd thing it wasn b4 the actual thing tt i found out.... quite sad.. didn get to meet the medicine pple for lunch.. miss derek and jo
qiang is back le.. somehow i feel stressed over it.. feel like i need to do something... then again i'm not brother's keeper... why can't human beings just be more in ctrl of their own lives!!!!! i need to have more compassion for pple..haiz...
saw nobuta selling on discount just now... so tempted to buy... so sad... youtube has taken down all the jdramas... sob.. sapuri....haiz... someone said love rev is seeling in poh kim... didn see it... which made me feel down
ok.. i'm whining a lot... it's my weird mood... i said a lot of unnecessary things to dade kevin.. must have been quite hurtful i think... grr.. me and my unthinking brain.... haiz
have so much stuff to do.. like listen to the lect i miss... write norman's proposal for conference.. prepare for next week's worship.. arghz!!! i need a guitarist
maybe i can meet ian and jon for lunch tmr... miss them... haha... finally a happy thought
veera is going all philosophical on me... i think i'm getting more blur....
i miss grace.............
holding on to you.
9:42 PM
Monday, October 16, 2006
realised i haven't blogged about my life...settling down in uni which is good.. i think my japanese class pple and my usp class pple are cool.. yay.. made frens which makes uni more bearable.. i can't stand the fact tt studying takes up so much of my time!!!! my time wid God is sufferring and so are my relationships with pple... sob...i'm whining too much... anywayz.. fasting and praying ended today.. what can i say.. it's been great!! i shud fast and pray more.. it really helps me focus on God and do some serious prayer.. i think i've really grown in my prayer walk these few days... thank you God!!!in a busy period now.. hope this blows over soon :) ohohoh... i made a new nii-san.. he's nice even though he can bully me quite a lot... and the prata pple are still bullying me... one day must get someone who understands tamil to go sit in and hear what they say bout it...ok. i noe this is still kinda short... but hee.. tt's all
holding on to you.
11:08 PM
