Sunday, July 30, 2006
Had a rjlight gathering today!! so happening!! haha.. i missed them.. got to see some of them that i haven't seen in a long time... like barney!!! hee.. barney's gonna do geog too!! so happening.. i think law and lee are gonna be so surprised... it was good to see shane too.. didn haf much chance to talk though.. didn talk much to derek too :( we bowled, swam and ate... haha.. and then we had worship!! was quite funny cause the key was too high and everyone cudn sing...lol...then derek shared the Word from Eph 6:21-24 about how Paul sent Tychicus to the ephesians when he was in prison..mainly it was abt fellowship and how he hoped we would continue to fellowship and keep up wid one another.. it was also about how meeting up and encouraging one another also meant sacrifice... i think it really took a lot for them to come.. esp the guys in NS.. derek lives so out of the way la (it's a super cool place btw)....when derek asked us what we learnt.. the first thought that came to my mind was that if i every get stuck in prison, i'll send a fren to tell them how i'm doing..haha.. it was quite an amusing thought...i guess wat really impacted me was wat mf said about how a lot of times pple just ask abt how u are and then they forget about it or it's more like a hi bye kinda thing.. just for the sake of saying something.. however in the verse it says "I have sent to you for this very purpose, that you may know our affairs, and that he may comfort your hearts." I felt kinda guilty after tt.. cause like i was reminded of how that in my "busyness" i haven't taken the time to listen to my friends, meet them up, fellowship and actually pray for them... well.. i guess that's why fellowshiping takes discipline as well... a lot of times we take the word too lightly. i thought it was quite amazing how at the end we were all prompted to get each others msn.. i guess we nvr really thought bout it b4 cause we used to see each other so often in sch..today was kinda strange too.. i got to spend a lot of time wid karen.. i found it strange cause of all of them i'm not as close to her.. yea...she's kinda new and she's in science too... but i really admire her committment to the grp.. i had a lot of time to talk to her on the way back.. she thanked me at the end for sharing...actually i think she made me realise a lot todayl.. like how i really miss imparting and sharing life wid another believer... i realised how i missed teaching and helping someone else grow... haha.. maybe God is trying to say something... i wud say it's great to get to know her better...i really miss the fellowship we had today.. it's so different.. for once everyone is equal.. someone's not ur mentor and u're not there to guide someone else.. it's really like peer lead peer (apart frm derek who is always trying to feed me more etc etc.. treating me like a little girl..).. i miss rjlight!!
holding on to you.
10:46 PM
Saturday, July 15, 2006
met jo tan today!! missed her so... it's so gd to spk wid pple who are like-minded.. we had a great time sharing bout her mission trip.. cambodia sounds so exciting wid pple carrying ice blocks on bikes to sell and those empty phone booths where u haf pple waiting along the side to lend u their handphones so they can earn money and u can call. it's great to see wat God is doing in cambodia!! We talked abt praying for global revival too.. which is so exciting cause indeed God is doing great things!! and yea.. a reminder to pray !!
Read a book today.. it was just a silly novel bout this lawyer who's so busy and one day she ends up being a domestic helper by accident. Suddenly her life is turned arnd and she starts to slow down and see and hear things... what a reminder to us who are always trapped in the state of "busyness" to slow down.. it's a singaporean thing. I dun haf anything going on now.. no work.. no sch.. yet i'm always busy.. i guess it's a reminder for me too!! stop doing unnecessary things and start praying, start seeking God and enjoying His presence!! Slow down and hear Him speak!!
at a crossroad now... with everything.. i should feel depressed.. sad... something.. but i'm not.. maybe it'll hit me soon. most of frens are leaving to some ctry overseas, the rest tt i'm close to are either in army or medicine.. it'll be a challenge for me i think.. i'm not as close to my neighbours.. trying to keep a relationship wid them..even trying to meet up... it's trying.. i seem to find myself grasping at air... (of course there's ferlin and joe) still.. it's a change...we've all moved on?? well... almost 10 yrs of frenship.. doesn add up to much i suppose... i treasure it but i'm not so sure they do.. i guess i feel alone sometimes... i just push it aside.. maybe it's time to start a new.. heh.. so escapist.. who noes.. haha i think to much
i was just musing today.. am i a realist or an idealist?? i'm definitely a spiritualist and not a reductionist... hehe i could be an idealist cause i believe tt God can perform miracles tt are beyond my imagination.. i believe in the impossible so i'm a idealist.. then again.. God is real... therefore i must be a realist!!
haha... i think joe feels like killing me now... i think i haven't had enuf slp!!
holding on to you.
12:39 AM
Tuesday, July 11, 2006
hee i thank God for lee!! somehow God always uses my piano teachers to reach me..hehe..like how my previous previous teacher brought me to church.. anyway i was really encouraged but what he said to me today. i guess i've been feeling quite useless and not knowing wat to do wid ministry... like where to go and stuff.. honestly i'm not too sure wat my giftings ah... before the lesson i was just asking myself. why does lee keep producing albums?? i mean not many pple noe abt him or his music (maybe the older ones). i listened to the first album before, well it's not tt great either. amazingly, lee talked to me today abt how he gaf up his promotions and stuff (many pple noe bout this in sch) and remained a normal teacher when he was a track a few yrs back to become principal. quite appalling.. plus we noe the old lee was quite prideful (tt's wat pple said.. not sure) but still he knew wat God wanted him to do.. and really i respect him.. despite seeing pple move on and having his students tease him.. he stood firm for God and here he is encouraging me. i listened to parts of his new album.. it's great! really it is.. it's called Unconditional by Eric Lee.. i could feel the Spirit of God move even as he was singing.. it's great and he's improved a lot.. i know God is going to use this album to touch the hearts of many lives just as He touched mine as i listened to the album... i shall do lee a favour for being such a great teacher and for all the encouragement and everything... all u pple GET THE ALBUM.. i'm a picky person.. and i know this is great!!most imptly lee reminded me that God is faithful... and i see God's faithfulness is his life even as he does God's work with little acknowledgements.. i've listened to his albums and i've seen how far God has brought himPraise God!!
holding on to you.
10:52 PM
Monday, July 10, 2006
God is really great!! You can call it coincidence if you want but i know He knows my every thought, my every hurt, my every emotion.
Anywayz, i've been thinking recently how distant i've become from my neighbours. I guess the thought has been coming to me quite frequently. Not exactly the happiest of thoughts, but i guess it doesn't exactly throw me in depression. Still i did talk to God about it and God was really great today! yup yup
Let's see... today i actually met joe for lunch (where i depressed him again!! Unintentionally of course), ian and i had another sms conversation, had another one wid rh later and then jon, rome and i played badminton. Was quite fun. Talked to mal on msn too. So i guess i'm pretty thankful that i actually had a chance to interact wid my neighbours again. After all i did grow up wid them. They do mean quite a lot... Joe is designing a jersey.. haha.. i'm quite amused... it actually finally came to pass la!! i mean for how long have we discussed this (on and off that is).
Anywayz just fin ST meeting!! so fun.. ST has funky pple... and Pas K gaf me a lift home... whee...
btw... HK was great!! grace and I had loads of fun...i miss shan.. shall call her soon!!
holding on to you.
11:40 PM
Wednesday, July 05, 2006
hee.. so long since i've blogged!! Well becky's back!! so exciting. anyway i'm leaving for hk tmr. bin is so sweet la.. he was so sad cause he knows he can't send me off.. anyway it's onli 4 days... so happy... grace and i haf this super packed schedule or something... i guess we both need a brk from a lot of stuff..was reading Shadow of the Almighty again... reminded of one thing.. tt Job is a lesson of acceptance not blind resignation but of believing acceptance that what God does is well done. There's really so much more to learn.. Started on Loren Cunningham's book too !! yay... i saw buddhist monks doing street e today.. was quite surprised... now tt's modernisation for you!!hee.. flying soon... still haf stuff to pack :( You know how i dislike packingi haven't said gd bye to shan... haiz.. too busy...not tt anyone really bothersmiss ferlin and ian terribly...haha speaking of ian.. tt bum messaged me several times during his math paper... dots....
holding on to you.
12:39 AM
