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Monday, May 29, 2006

Work is finally over, well no really, still doing a lot of extra stuff for my previous employer. I guess work pretty much took up all my time, leaving this place pretty stagnant.

Some things i learnt whilst working. I guess it was really an issue of submission towards the authorities God had placed over me ( my employers, during that time even my pastor). It was really difficult. I used to be complaining and complaining and we were really being exploited back there!! However, one of the days during my devotion, devotion was actually about Jacob and how he continued to work for Laban even though he was being exploited, first for Leah then Rachel etc. Despite all this, he continued to do so and eventually God found him a way out and even got the better sheep and goats from Laban's flock. And so, it spoke to me that if God put you to a particular task that He would see you through. Well, it didn't end that badly after all. Still have work to do though.

I really messed up on sat during the meeting. Thank God for Shane and Derek who stood by me and talked to me and stuff. I realised how important the support they gave was. I really miss them, the christian support from school. The fellowship and the encouragement, the openess is something i can't even find, sad to say, in my church. I guess around them i don't feel like i need to be strong enough to lead and at least i don't find people treating me like a kid. It's so natural. We're gonna meet up soon the whole bunch of us which is great!! Met up with Grace today, miss her so much!! Btw i really like shane's church...

This is so random.. but i miss ferlin..haha..

holding on to you. 9:38 PM

Thursday, May 11, 2006

Does Anybody Hear Her
Casting Crowns

She is running
A hundred miles an hour in the wrong direction
She is trying
But the canyon's ever widening
In the depths of her cold heart
So she sets out on another misadventure just to find
She's another two years older
And she's three more steps behind

Does anybody hear her? Can anybody see?
Or does anybody even know she's going down today
Under the shadow of our steeple
With all the lost and lonely people
Searching for the hope that's tucked away in you and me
Does anybody hear her?
Can anybody see?

She is yearning
For shelter and affection
That she never found at home
She is searching
For a hero to ride in
To ride in and save the day
And in walks her prince charming
And he knows just what to say
Momentary lapse of reason
And she gives herself away

Does anybody hear her? Can anybody see?
Or does anybody even know she's going down today
Under the shadow of our steeple
With all the lost and lonely people
Searching for the hope that's tucked away in you and me
Does anybody hear her? Can anybody see?

If judgement looms under every steeple
If lofty glances from lofty people
Can't see past her scarlet letter
And we never even met her

If judgement looms under every steeple
If lofty glances from lofty people
Can't see past her scarlet letter
And we never even met her
Never even met her

Does anybody hear her? Does anybody see?
Or does anybody even knows she's going down today
Under the shadow of our steeple
With all the lost and lonely people
Searching for the hope that's tucked away in you and me

Does anybody hear her? Does anybody see?
Does anybody even know she's going down today?
Under the shadow of our steeple
With all the lost and lonely people
Searching for the hope that's tucked away in you and me
Does anybody hear her? Does anybody see?

He is running a hundred miles an hour in the wrong direction

holding on to you. 10:26 PM

Monday, May 01, 2006

I haven't blogged for ages.. i guess teaching just left me wid not much time... anyway the purpose of me blogging...

some time back i spoke to a fren and he left me wid this qn... "If God loved everyone so much, why couldn He just have left Jesus here or send Jesus back so that everyone will know He is the true God.."

ok.. before i say anything abt this.. let me put my disclaimer...well.. i'm really bad at apologetics!! so be kind if i'm talking nonsense here...

so yes.. back to the qn... my mentor and i were talking abt something else but we sort of dwelled a little on this.. so here's wat dawned on me...

But I tell you the truth: It is for your good that I am going away. Unless I go away, the Counselor will not come to you; but if I go, I will send him to you. When he comes, he will convict the world of guilt in regard to sin and righteousness and judgment: in regard to sin, because men do not believe in me;

John 16:7-9

Jesus had to go because...

1. So that the Holy Spirit would come to us. Rather then us having to look all over the place for Jesus, the Holy Spirit dwells within us and is with us all the time. We need the Holy Spirit. He is our counselor, He convicts us of our sin and He empowers us to do the work of God. Through the Holy Spirit, not only does God build us up but God chooses to use us to share the gospel instead!

2. even if Jesus did walk among man, would man believe He was the son of God? Considering Jesus did walk among men in the past , yet "men do not believe in him (me)", what more the modern day skeptic! Instead the Holy Spirit has the power to convict us of our sins. It is only when man realises his sin that he can truly come to realise that he needs God (which is why the gospel is nvr complete unless we talk abt sin, because it is what separated us from God in the first place!).

Anywayz... other things to consider

In the Word of God it did say that Jesus would return at the end times where we would all be caught up in the air (my church stand). If Jesus did suddenly appear and reveal himself to all man, yet the believers were not caught up, wouldn that be contradicting the Word of God? Also the fact that God chooses to use us -- man, to shine His glory, shows how God is really so generous in giving us this undeserving favour. It shows the amount of love and trust he has for us. It really is a privilege to do the work of God. And well in the super ulu and unreachable parts of the world it has been rumoured that pple saw Jesus himself preaching the gospel to them..

hehe.. i'll leave the rest for u to ponder on.. as i said i'm not good at this kinda stuff...

well gonna be fasting and praying for the next few days till june... For some reason God has been urging me to do so but i kept postponing it and i told God i'll do so beginning May.. guess wat!! God didn't forget!! and yest He reminded me!! It was only this morning that i realised it was 1 May..wow God has a fantastic memory...hehe.. but anywayz i guess i'm also gonna fast cause i really need clearer direction esp in ministry. Been quite upset lately cause i really dunno wat i'm doing.. Some issues to deal with too i guess.. it's also gonna be in prep for retreat! quite exciting.. for once i actually feel disciplined to fast.. it feels different.. i guess it's really God's strength... after all it is God's idea...hee.. can't believe i actualli lasted thru today (running arnd and using energy and stuff).

btw today was really fun!! was mending stall with wc, he's really funny.. and jon's really fun too..hee

holding on to you. 10:05 PM