miracles are gonna happen.

Monday, February 20, 2006

Even as i prepare for the tmr i must confessed that i'm stressed out. So many things to do. And truly i can't do it on my own. so many things going on at the same time too.. confuses me, brings me down... but the devil will not have his way and i was strive on and press on for God!!

Praying.. praying for Indonesia. Praying for God to heal a broken land. Praying that He will give me the same compassion that He has for the people. Praying that i can learn to reach with His hands and feel with His heart and knowing that I can't do anything.

Love Them Like Jesus
Casting Crowns

The love of her life is drifting away
They're losing the fight for another day
The life that she's known is falling apart
A fatherless home, a child's broken heart

You're holding her hand, you're straining for words
You trying to make - sense of it all
She's desperate for hope, darkness clouding her view
She's looking to you

Just love her like Jesus, carry her to Him
His yoke is easy, His burden is light
You don't need the answers to all of life's questions
Just know that He loves her and stay by her side
Love her like Jesus
Love her like Jesus

The gifts lie in wait, in a room painted blue
Little blessing from Heaven would be there soon
Hope fades in the night, blue skies turn to gray
As the little one slips away

You're holding her hand, you're straining for words
You're trying to make sense of it all
They're desperate for hope, darkness clouding their view
They're looking to you

Just love them like Jesus, carry them to Him
His yoke is easy, His burden is light
You don't need the answers to all of life's questions
Just know that He loves them and stay by their side
Love them like Jesus

Lord of all creation holds our lives in His hands
The God of all the nations holds our lives in His hands
The Rock of our salvation holds our lives in His hands
He cares for them just as He cares for you

So love them like Jesus, love them like Jesus
You don't need the answers to all of life's questions
Just know that He loves them and stay by their side
Love them like Jesus
Love them like Jesus

holding on to you. 2:18 PM

Wednesday, February 15, 2006

In Me
Casting Crowns

If you asked me to leap
Out of my boat on the crashing waves
If you ask me to go
Preach to a lost world of Jesus saves

I'll go, but I cannot go alone
'Cause I know I'm nothing on my own
But the power of Christ in me makes me strong
Makes me strong

'Cause when I'm weak, You make me strong
When I'm blind you shine Your light on me
'Cause I'll never get by living on my own ability
How refreshing to know You don't need me
How amazing to find that you want me
So I'll stand on Your Truth, and I'll fight with Your Strength
Untill You bring the victory, by the power of Christ in me

If you ask me to run
And carry your light into foreign land
If you ask me to fight
Deliver your people from satan's hand

I'll go, but I cannot go alone 'Cause I know I'm nothing on my own
But the power of Christ in me makes me strong
Makes me strong'Cause when I'm weak, You make me strong
When I'm blind you shine Your light on me'Cause I'll never get by living on my own abilityHow refreshing to know You don't need me
How amazing to find that You want me
So I'll stand on Your Truth, and I'll fight with Your Strength
Untill You bring the victory, by the power of Christ in me

To reach out with Your hands
To learn through Your eyes
To love with the love of a savior
To feel with Your heart
and to think with Your mind
I'd give my last breath for Your glory

'Cause when I'm weak, You make me strong
When I'm blind you shine Your light on me
'Cause I'll never get by living on my own ability
when I'm weak, You make me strong
When I'm blind you shine Your light on me
'Cause I'll never get by living on my own ability

How refreshing to know You don't need me
How amazing to find that You want me
So I'll stand on Your Truth, and I'll fight with Your Strength
Untill You bring the victory, by the power of Christ in me
The power of Christ in me
The power of Christ in me

was thinking about the vision i had the other day.. was thinking about a lot of things that God has been saying.. ultimately i also wanna keep this song in mind - to remember the reasons for the things i do and to always have a right motive before Him..

feeling kinda lost today.. spoke to someone on the bus... i feel enstranged.. i no longer know where my ministry is... i dunno where the pple are... i wouldn want to say that there's too much christian company... it's not that exactly...i no longer noe wat i'm supposed to do.. and sometimes i feel i'm running too far in front of what has been intended... i feel lost... i dunno where have the pple gone... it's not supposed to be like this...

holding on to you. 10:58 PM

Sunday, February 12, 2006

just came back from riau mission trip today!! learnt a lot and really enjoyed myself!! i love the kids so much!! really gave me a new perspective towards children's ministry... i always thought i would haf no patience with kids.. but who knew..haha.. then again it's only one day... if it were a few more days i would haf been thoroughly exhausted... but i love the kids!! they are so sweet... and i really learnt wat it means when they say the language of love transcends all languages... it is truly amazing... even though all we can do is nod in silent agreement how they will just cling on to you and follow you around... even though i'm pretty sad that i have to leave i'm so glad cause i know that God is doing a work in their lives!! ok.. i sound a bit confused... :)

something else i learnt is really to trust God cause really everything we planned went haywire... or rather we had to be really flexible... haha.. but God was there all along even with the switch of plans and everything...yup we got to know the kids... also...haha... my sermon.. yar... i blanked la.. cause half of my sermon was linked to the games we played... and in the end we didn play the games... anyway i just wanna thank God for His peace... wanna thank God for sending Matthew along to help..

been crying a lot on the trip though... arghz.. until i a bit blur.. i really dun wanna cry.. but i'm really touched by God's love for the people... and i dunno... pas kieran says we dun haf to find explanations for everything we feel.. sometimes God is just doing a work...still...

one song that is really beautiful:

Ku mau cinta Yesus selamanya
Ku mau cinta Yesus selamanya
Meskipun badai silih berganti dalam hidupku
Ku tetap cinta Yesus selamanya

Ya Allah Bapa
Ini aku anakMu
Layakkanlah seluruh hidupku
Ya Allah Bapa
Ini aku anakMu
Pakailah sesuai dengan rencanaMu

holding on to you. 9:30 PM

Sunday, February 05, 2006

becky came back!! whee!! i was seriously stunned... i cudn believe it.. haha... jia lat.. even her own sis didn noe she's back la... and she was back since thursday!! but it's so gd to see her.. a pity she has to rush of soon.. so can't spend time wid us.... stil.. it's gd to see her!!

today God reminded me something bout prayer.. many times we only come to God when we need something.. we don't even notice it but we slip into it sometimes.. then we come to God and intercede and we hope some big miracle happen.. tada... it doesn't!! haha.. so anywayz... we haf to continue to spend time with God to continually be in tune with Him... tt's when i realised today wat went wrong the past few days (yupz i've been struggling in prayer...grrr...) and the reason being midst of the work and the too much play... i haven't been talking to God continually... so yep... i took the time today to pray continually.. it was really great!! haha yupz and when i joined them for intercession today it was like break thru.... so... whee!!!

anywayz.. ich bin sehr taurig.. ich wolle jetzt schlafen....morgon muss ich sehr fruhlich steht auf....

hahaha... i miss german...

holding on to you. 1:23 AM

Friday, February 03, 2006

By faith Moses, when he had grown up, refused to be known as the son of Pharaoh's daughter. He chose to be mistreated along with the people of God rather than to enjoy the pleasures of sin for a short time. He regarded disgrace for the sake of Christ as of greater value than the treasures of Egypt, because he was looking ahead to his reward. By faith he left Egypt, not fearing the king's anger; he persevered because he saw him who is invisible.
Hebrews 11:24-27

God really knows my thoughts esp after that meeting wid some of my old sch mates... i guess it's also another sort of "warning" about the future... i'm fearful... but i guess it's also to build my faith... these few days have been really tiring.. i just wanna thank God for pullin me through...

holding on to you. 11:29 PM