Friday, October 28, 2005
some rambing form rotn tt just reminded me of well.. us... and all it's problems
"No. Yet I know that we shall not love like this always. Nothing can insure the continuance of love. It will evaporate like a spirit, and so I feel full of fears.""... but yet I am older at this than you, I loved another man once, and now I love you... But I do not think I shall be the one who wearies first. It will, i fear, end in this way: your mother will find out that you meet me, and she will influence you against me.""That can never be. She knows of these meetings already.""Though his love was as chaste as that of Petrarch for his Laura, it had made fetters of what previously was only a difficulty."haiz.... full of troubles...can't see each other can't speak to each other... and even if we do speak.. we do meet.. there's always this fear... fear... arghz... i wonder what's next....and yes.... home is just such a sad sad place...
sometimes.. sometimes i feel like giving up... haiz.. he hates it when i say such things.. but still...
holding on to you.
8:46 AM
Wednesday, October 19, 2005
oh yay!! i think my math is improving.. haha.. finally.. haven't had time to just sit hear and type nonsense... have been so busy studying and studying.. it's been quite boring realli...haha.. my life is getting so drama... i was just telling shooj tt it's a bit like r & j.. cl says it's more like all or nothing.. haha... it's like his parents, his maid, his bro and my parents against the 2 of us.. haiz.. so many misunderstandings... and we keep waiting for each other's calls and stuff..haiz..even in our dreams we're waiting for each other.. he woke up today still holding the phone going "ello".... it's situations like tt where u really dunno whether to laugh or cry... i felt so tempted to tell him "suan le... wo men mei yuan... fen shou ba.." cl said i'm being over dramatic.... anywayz.. thx cl and grace for prayin for me.. love u guys...
holding on to you.
8:22 PM
Monday, October 17, 2005
In The Blink Of An Eye You put me here for a reasonYou have a mission for meYou knew my name and You called itLong before I learned to breatheSometimes I feel disappointedBy the way I spend my timeHow can I further Your kingdomWhen I'm so wrapped up in mineIn a Blink of an eye that is whenI'll be closer to You than I've ever beenTime will fly, but until thenI'll embrace every moment I'm givenThere's a reason I'm alive for a blink of an eyeAnd though I'm living a good lifeCan my life be something great?I have to answer the questionBefore it's too lateCause in a Blink of an eye that is whenI'll be closer to You than I've ever beenTime will fly, but until thenI'll embrace every moment I'm givenThere's a reason I'm alive for a blink of an eyeIf I give the very best of meThat becomes my legacySo tell me what am I waiting for?What am I waiting for?In a Blink of an eye that is whenI'll be closer to You than I've ever beenTime will fly, but until thenI'll embrace every moment I'm givenIn a Blink of an eye that is whenI'll be closer to You than I've ever beenTime will fly, but until thenI'll embrace every moment I'm givenThere's a reason I'm alive for a blink of an eyenew album!!! mercyme rocks.. the words just speak to you sometimes..for me.. just this first.. now with thinking abt my future... arghz.. everything is giving me a headache...
holding on to you.
9:00 PM
Monday, October 10, 2005
All For LoveAll for love, a Father gaveFor only love could make a wayAll for love, the heavens cried for love was crucifiedOh, how many times have I broken Your heartBut still You forgive if only I askAnd how many times have You heard me prayDraw near to meEverything I need is YouMy beginning, my foreverEverything I need is YouLet me sing all for loveI will join the angel songEver holy is the LordKing of glory, King of allAll for love a Savior prayedAbba Father, have Your wayThough they know not what they doLet the cross draw man to You, to YouTo You, to Youindeed Lord all i ever needed was You and is You.. thank You for everythingas for him... i wish he weren't so perceptive... i wish he didn noe my thoughts so well...i wish i cud just let it go... i wish Lord there weren't so many complications in my life....please restore my joy
holding on to you.
8:41 PM
Wednesday, October 05, 2005
mugging mood again.. somehow my heart seems so unsettled.. haiz.. lots of things to do... quite worried about qiang... i guess all we can do is pray...
as for him... well.. we finally made some stuff clear.. not everything.. sometimes it hurts me tt things have to be done this way.. sometimes i realli want more.. but i noe this isn't the time.. haiz.. everyone is starting to notice stuff le... rome and jon saw us today.. can get realli annoying sometimes when he just ignores me totalli in front of our frens..
enuf worrying...
well.. love is patient..
phys geog!!! whee....
holding on to you.
8:36 PM
Sunday, October 02, 2005
it's been some time since i've blogged... i'm much happier..been releasing a lot of stuff unto the Lord... results are out.. not too great as compared to my classmates... but who's comparing? it could have been worse.. i just can't help but be thankful.. can't say i worked as hard as everyone else did anywayz... so easily distracted :\ .. lol.. then again.. studying was nvr the most impt thing to me... was just checking my goals and visions.. seem to be rather on track... i'm happy i guess.. the little things he does and everything.. we keep it as it is not really saying anything.. just keeping the silent commitment there.. he gives me my space and i grant him his.. i wouldn want to gif more and i wouldn ask for more either.. i'm not sure where it's going.. i guess i'm just gonna haf to trust God.. i'm just thankful tt God's playing a bigger part in his life now.. for once i'm learning to love someone whilst having God still at the center.. he doesn distract me from God, the things i have to do or the frens i need to minister to.. perhaps i'm finally finding the balance... haha.. i still dun haf the faith it will work out... i guess i loss tt faith a long time ago... need to trust in Him... was reading ferlin's blog.. heh.. starting to feel guilty bout wat a terrible fren i've been... whilst i'd like to gif prelims and As as an excuse i noe tt i haven't been putting in the effort.. so to ferlin... a big sorry... (and yes.. u do seem to be busy everytime i try to talk to u on msn :P ) .. and no..haha. i'm not jealous of joehan ... :Dbusy busy time... sry to all the peeps i've been neglecting (mal, kev, xj, ferlin etc etc) and will continue neglecting.. 1 mth to As.. arghz.. mug mug...
holding on to you.
9:54 PM
