Sunday, July 31, 2005
all i can do is thank God for this fren that He has given me.. someone that understands me completely.. someone who's been down that road.. someone i can understand and talk to and be a help to too... someone who is so open and frank.. it's just different talking to someone who's been thru all that and someone who hasn't been thru the same things..i can't explain the connection really.. it's just a kind of deeper understanding and comfort knowing you're not alone.. i am grateful for the Lord heard my prayers and really sent such a fren as an ans to those prayers.. for as long as this gift is given, i pray that i will treasure it. i really pray the rumours and stuff that's going round church won't ruin it.. we talked bout it today.. and i dun think we will be pretty much affected by it.. just tt we'll try to be more low profile i guess.. haha.. so amusing.. both our main concern was tt it would wreck the frenship.. i guess tt's a gd start.. well.. wat's most important is that the Lord is the basis of this frenship...anywayz.. thanks Kevin for listening to my lamenting these few days...choir is over.. so sad... but we had fun.. haha.. amanda finally caught on to the game min and i were playing over the course of prac...apart from all the fun i think wat mattered was that we worshipped wid everything we had...wid tt....to Him be all honour and glory and praise forever and ever Amen!!
holding on to you.
11:00 PM
Friday, July 29, 2005
falling sick.. look sick.. think i am sick.. still eating a whole lot of nonsense though... but the whole thing made me so weak the entire day felt so miserable.. like i had the constant need to depend on somebody... qiang forgot to call adding to my misery.. of course later he sms a flurried "so sorry and i'll call u tonite" which made me a feel a bit better... bleah.. it's not like me to feel this weak and pathetic and useless... arghz.. i want to slp some more...thank God it's the weekend...
haha.. my essay.. the rushed within less than an hour not even 4 sides.. couldn bother to do research essay actually got a merit... praise the Lord..haha.. totally nothing to do wid my capabilities... i am quite happy.. lol.. i thot i was gonna get a giant U or something... thank u Lord!!! ok.. i noe there are pple who probably feel like hitting me now.. i'm sry la... can't help it -grinz-
i feel like i'm getting further further away frm everyone in Light.. dunno why... maybe cause of my recent lousy attendence? dun think so... maybe it's just me being oversuspicious.. or it's just cause ruth is like closer to someone else now...
haha.. i shud stop worrying.. cell later!!! excited!!! ... i hope i can like get out of my state of tiredness before then though......
Give thanks to the Lord our God and King...His love endures forever!!!!!
holding on to you.
4:30 PM
Thursday, July 28, 2005
so little time tgt scrimped out of hurried dinners... it's annoying.. and i can't sms or call cause he's got sch and i've got sch... arghz... didn't realise how much i miss him till i met him today and he was acting a bit strange... he looked so sian and tired he didn even joke at the start.. thank God he loosened up later and we had loads of fun... i love jazz!!! minor blues are so cool... but it sounds realli sad..haha... then again i'm a melancholic depressed sod... so bring it on... choir was so fun yesterday.. more sops!!! the younger girls are so fun to be with...haha.. and our tenors and basses haf realli grown.. i think we sound good.. but doesn really matter.. all for His glory!!!!someone offerred me a job today after my As.. haiz.. circumstance circumstance... haha.. he looked so guai today.. big t-shirt... instead of his usual pai kia look... but then he still walks as if he wants to whack someone up... haiz.. mite not see him tmr either.....wat's wrong wid me....
holding on to you.
10:14 PM
Monday, July 25, 2005
been asking myself whether it's just a rebound thing.. but i guess it isn't.. realised it when i stopped comparing and truly knowing and finding what i like in him...
i'm not hopelessly in love.. touched yes.. by someone who claims to think of me every second.. who would run after my bus.. who was tell me silly thing and have a kind of openess wid me tt i have nvr shared wid anyone..
for once.. my priorities are right.. God's still first!... tt's a start.. must watch myself though...
i'm quite happy... just tt rite now i dun really noe wat decisions to make wid regards to my future...
study study... :)
holding on to you.
9:52 PM
Sunday, July 24, 2005
whao... wat a challenge it was today switching back to teaching the green bk... feels strange walking round church wid qiang.. is like everyone noes him, claims to noe him or wants to noe him or something..i guess tt comes from being too gd looking.. have this awkward feeling when pple act as if we're tgt..it disturbs me... i think it was quite strange when he insisted on sitting wid me during svc today.. i was sitting wid my girls which mean he had to endure an entire row of girls.. ah well.. i'm still trying to figure out whether it's a bad thing if pple especially my girls misunderstand... well now tt jus is back he'll prob hang round him more i guess... some reason i just feel really sad...back to being alone again...
holding on to you.
10:54 PM
and so it ends.. haiz.. all the fun wid qiang.. jus will be back soon to take over.. he'll be starting sch.. i'll be busy wid prelims.. but really i pray the frenship will go a long long way.. after spending these few weeks wid him i really wonder how it'll be like not seeing or hearing from him everyday... haha.. i shud just stop and listen to his advice "bored ah? lonely ah? pray to God lor" we'll be going out later i think.. for the last last time ..haiz.. i wonder why i'm feeling so miserable.. we made our promises to spend time wid each other.. maybe it's just me being cynical.. i just dun believe in such promises after all...
geog s didn turn out to be as bad as expected though i nearly forgot tt i had to do another essay at home.. thank God i remembered just in time...
went to the new nlb wid danl today.. it's amazing! the references are like whao... and the view is from the 13th storey is pretty cool too.. not to mention the idea of the roof top garden and the sleek design of the building.. and wow.. 14 storeys..haha.. like one of those international central libraries.. okok. i sound like an idiot who has nvr seen a library before... haha.. can't help it.. the references!!!!
choir today was amusing.. josh came in the end.. and he and his nonsense as usual brightened up the day... haiz once again we poor sops got ostracized and booted out the hall to prac on our own.. gosh the altos are like covering us totally... we are so weak.. arghz!!! prac prac prac.. cannot sounds squeaky and weak le...
cl has thinks i'm a strange person.. one u can nvr grasp.. a cynic like ykt but a diff kind of cynic cause i can still laugh and smile all the time.. wonder why.. i fluctuate too much.. i can't even grasp myself....
holding on to you.
12:26 AM
Thursday, July 21, 2005
haiz.. yesterday was a disaster when like half my class got a look at qiang.. gg... randy and all trying to get a whole lot of info out of me.. haha.. and they think qiang is quite beng.. i am soo amused i think he'll kill me if i mention it tmr.. lol... haiz.. and whilst i was worrying so much abt the whole frenship thing, he said something really sad yest... "when u finish uni u won't even recognise someone like me"i dun care where he's frm what he was.. he has been bought by the Lord and tt's worth more than anything else degree or talent or watever...gosh ch's really daring la i can't believe she actually attempted to pinch my math teacher's cheeks today.. haha.. and i've been hearing so many comments bout the batch sweaters.. lee hates it.. lol..my class guys can't stop complaining bout the size.. today after math lect ykt actually got stuck in it.. randy and i had to try to get it off him.. pulling and tugging etc etc... it was a terrible sight...haiz seem like a lot of pple are falling ill... must pray pray pray!
holding on to you.
9:55 PM
Tuesday, July 19, 2005
where is this love? i can't see it. i can't touch it. i can hear it. i can here some words, but i can't do anything with your easy words.well.. sometimes that's just how i feel.... me and my melancholic streak
been worrying so much bout my temporary arrangement wid qiang now tt jus is gonna be back soon. and yepz he'll be taking over me.. it's like the sudden worry tt i'll lose a fren.. but qiang called and msged something really sweet today and it really brightened my day.. God is good!
anywayz i'm so happy to hear frm becky!! haha she spks as if i'll be visiting her in japan soon or something...lol.. maybe it's like a prophecy.. i love japan!! it sounds exciting there in japan.. realli.. haha.. and all those coincidences wid the pple in the omf.. i'm so glad i can still share wid her even though she's so far away.. well as she always does.. she gave me some things to think abt...
What are 3 or 4 things that matter most to you? Think for a while before you answer this next question. Are these things receiving the care, emphasis and time that their priority in your life calls for? Its something like asking yourself, what do you want to be remembered for at the end of your life. And searching your life to see if you have been investing in your life to reach that end.
holding on to you.
6:00 PM
Monday, July 18, 2005
it seems as if that the incident has crippled my faith in frenships.. went out wid qiang today and i found myself stressing out over wat to say wat to do.. it's like i'm so afraid he'll get bored of me.. haiz.. still he's ever so nice even though i really do think i'm quite a boring person.. wonder how long this frenship is going to last.. haiz.. Lord why am i so afraid of being lonely?saw kevin today.. that bum.. saw me in sch dao me... haha...still say lazy to call me... haha.. saw him at junction 8 later though.. aiyar.. cannot run away one la...oscar peterson!!! wonderful jazz.. maybe i shall go get the cd if there's time... hmmz..
holding on to you.
7:48 PM
Saturday, July 16, 2005
choir today!.... got transferred to sop.. haha.. i can't sing sop for nuts la.. johann must be nuts. put me in there... lol.. qiang followed me there and i think he got forced into choir too... jia lat.. i think everyone misunderstand qiang and me.. and then he's still so blur.. follow me everywhere.. haiz..........
tiredz.... my foot is still like a bun... wah.. the more i walk the worse it get.. qiang still make fun of me... haha.. he was staring at the steps going "u jump, i jump"..
haven't seen and talked to ez and joel for such a long time.. feel happy!.. joel is such a funny mc..
holding on to you.
11:00 PM
Friday, July 15, 2005
frankly i don't know what's wrong with me.. am i running away? mayb tt's the reason i was so reluctant to go today. thank God for choir. i'm perfectly happy. i saw her yesterday and it was just strange. i dunno what to feel though...towards him, her and the co pple who keep poking their finger in everything (why does nobody ever bother him but everyone bothers me?)... i want to make the frenship work but i dunno how to go about it.
i felt quite bad for turning down his offer. i would have gone if i could.. but i really hurt my ankle(doesn seem like he believes me).. didn seem tt bad at first but when i got back from church it was as swollen as bun.... lol.. and then i still spent the whole day running all over the place with qiang..
haha and today was a really wet day when we finally got to church we were both all wet cause of the rain.. had to lead worship.. haven't led in such a long time..was a bit nervous... started of really bad but thank God it got better..
choir tmr!!! yay!!!!
holding on to you.
11:59 PM
Thursday, July 14, 2005
my classmates are hilarious.. haha.. maybe we're all getting too stressed up...
on today's blood donation drive -g: aye u nvr go and donate ah?
m: donate for wat?
g: u're not donating because u're...
m: u nvr see that entire packet of blood, like 1 entire mug.. they take away so much blood. u go for what? want to lose weight ah. then u see the needle so thick.. might as well use satay stick poke into ur arm. later the person there go 'aye, sorry ah.. poke wrong one... this one satay stick.. eh.. brown and silver colour abt the same..'
on sex -context: my "bro's" theory about loving everyone(as in all the girls he's close to) equally.. ykt insists tt like tt he'll have sex wid everyone... and they jumped into this issue abt whether there was any emotional entanglement...
ykt: how can have no feelings attach one?
sj: why cannot? it's just an exercise
me: wat!!?
sj: see right if i run wid wiggs round the track does it mean anything? no right? and so if i run wid everyone if our class round the track it doesn't mean anything either. no strings attached...
(no wonder premarital sex is rife...)
sj: i love my analogies...
on piercings - *discussion wid regards to pple having piercings on strange places on their face...
ykt: i noe wat.. next times the spies will have piercings all arnd their face so if someone tries to cover their mouth and nose to smother them they'll still survive..
me: next they'll have to recruit spies wid faces like the moon just to disguise all those holes...
they do have the most ridiculous conversations..
didn't blog yesterday but i redid my blog.. well my bro helped me actually.. was getting a bit bored of the old one... anywayz.. went our wid qiang yest.. didn expect to hang out till so late.. he's a great guy.. i think we really got to noe each other better.. for the first time.. someone who understands and actually listen.. and well. i'm not ashamed to share my past experiences i guess cause we both were on tt same road to destruction b4.. though i'd say he was prob worse off.. in fact my experiences are nthg compared to his..still we got past all tt by the grace of God.. praying he'll nvr walk tt path again...
holding on to you.
8:57 PM
Tuesday, July 12, 2005
i'm tired of trying.. i'm leaving the frenship at the foot of the cross...
i didn't finish posting this song before... but it just spoke to me today... haha.. mike leyde rocks..
i see it in your eyes
a pain i can't describe
and u wonder when the light is gonna shine
u feel like giving in
and want a touch from heaven
and there's something standing in the way of freedom
speak life to your separation
trials and tribulation
open up ur mouth
and let the Healer take over
when u're feeling unstable
Jesus is able
open up ur mouth
and let the Healer take over...
i see it your smile
it's been upside down awhile
and it's only in ur dreams tt u can fly
God has bigger plans
let Him open up ur vision
and thru ur eyes of faith
proclaim ur freedom
the power of the spoken Word
speak it out and change the world
deliverance is found when you speak Life
-hurt-
holding on to you.
10:19 PM
Monday, July 11, 2005
i'm excited abt ea trip.. they've been thru so much to get there.. indeed our God is soverign! thank God tt everything God settled in the end.. after all tt warfare they had to go thru..they really a great team!!! but i guess we must remember tt it's not our own strength but His and His alone.. Praise God! cause wonderful things are gonna happen in EA!
-praying-reminded today where my ministry is.. haha.. back to sch and it's like back to work.. ministering and talking to pple.. yea.. i found my place.. it's really tiring and i feel stretched.. listening to wat so many have to say... the tired, the weary, the confused the suicidal.. and yea.. my kids... been learning a lot recently.. at the same time i'm physically weary and falling ill.. and there's huge warfare.. confusion and struggling within my spirit.. keep strong girl! Dun sway! like yh said.. wang le ta ba... he doesn't even care bout u... mayb i shud even forget bout the frenship... frankly spking i dun even noe wat to expect frm him.. i'm tired of thinking...
Holding On
Sometimes the pleasures that I see in this world
Look so attractive to me
Some days I'm driven by the things that I want
More than the things that I need
When I'm weakest
They sparkle the brightest it's true
But they'll never shine brighter than You
When my mind is uncertain
My heart keep holdin' on
My heart keeps holdin' on
Holdin' on to You
My eyes deceive me and turn me away
To the places I left behind
Can't trust these voices that lead me astray
Always confusing my mind
But the truth is
You've captured my heart I know
And there's no way I'll ever let go
When my mind is uncertain
My heart keeps holdin' on
My clinging to You
Is really You embracing me
My clinging to You
Is really You embracing me
i'm walking so close to Him but i'm struggling so hard as well.. it's like a constant battle within my heart and i'm just holding on..
holding on to you.
10:38 PM
Thursday, July 07, 2005
this will be the last time i'm seeing ferlin for a long long time... bout 6 mths.. haiz...she came over tonite and we had fun taking photos and stuff and checking out random things ..heee... haha.. today was the first in a long time since she joined us for the soccer.. the sky was in its unusual hue of pink again.. and yea.. our defence rocks!!! ... conceded 1 goal each onli .. woohoo.. gosh.. this is like the last last yr all of us will be tgt... manz.. haiz.. all these thoughts of leaving..
went pnp last nite...
i love u Lord.. i didn't even noe i was so affected by it.. but yar.. loneliness...cause no one understands cause everywhere u go seems like onli u feel this way or face these problems.. nobody bothers to ask.. and i wonder why You've made it this way... now even becky's gone it's like there's no one left who understands.. even when it's unbearable i thank you Lord for sending pple to pray for me.. thank you Lord for telling me again and again that You love me.. for assuring me time and again.. i don't deserve this love.. really i don't... i'm still trying to learn...
solitude
holding on to you.
2:40 PM
Wednesday, July 06, 2005
haven't seen jimmy for such a long time.. he used to be like my babysitter or something.. lol he came by today and said "wow.. everyone's grown up so quickly.. *turned arnd and looked pointedly at me* except you that is"..haha i miss him.. even if he's such a cow
heh looking back.. thinking abt the pple i grew up wid.. hmmz.. they've grown up... some a bit faster.. some a bit slower... :P
jon - haha... his behavior recently has been appalling.. ferlin thinks its cause he's finally growing up and becoming a bit rebellious.. kinda late.. but ah well.. haha.. i say poser and an asshole.. jerome says shit face.. well.. when we thought jon was gonna remain brotherly and sweet (though somewat overbearing at times) forever... how disappointing.. still.. we love the big guy...
hao - kinda think of it he's changed a lot.. recently it's been like rediscovering our lost frenship.. missed him a lot actually.. i remember in pri sch we used to haf a lot of fun fooling arnd and stuff though he used to be sort of a bully and whack me up and things.. then in sec sch he turned real bad and rebellious.. like ferlin said a jerk.. and yea.. a thief etc etc.. all the bad things.. now he's a lot better... which is a gd thing.. he's grown up... haha.. now he's the sweet and responsible one.. he's still a fun person to be wid... and he's the onli one the lot of cows who actually bothers to ask where i'm going or how i've been .... he is so sweet!... though he and jon seem to haf issues recently.
ian- not so much the selfish immature boy he was... haha.. he has a soft side and this yr.. he's actually been displaying some human emotions.. nah.. he's actually quite nice la once u get to noe him better.. just tt he'll try to rip off everyone before he tries to contribute...haha.. can't believe he's actually like a buddy to me..
dan - .. now he's in his rebellious stage... going out all the time.. disobeying his mum.. well he is quite still quite young and excusable i guess..
rome - lol.. forever cute.. hopefully... unfortunately, capable of being a pest esp since he's learned all the bad habits from those above...
ferlin - haha... definitely more female :D
as for the rest like chin and stuff.. they disappear in and out... so not much to comment abt
holding on to you.
11:57 PM
Tuesday, July 05, 2005
soccer today was slack.. everyone was just standing arnd... hao and jon spent the most of the time bickering and suaning each other... lol... both of them are so unforgiving... hao was unusually chatty today.. two of us kept doing stupid things again... after soccer we were hanging round talking today... looks like there's hope in them after all... like hao's keeping away frm drugs and stuff... haha.. but in terms of grades.. looks like we're all down hill
love. a word that doesn interest me anymore. mayb i'm tired mayb i'm just bored of it. i dun really think i'm cynical. haha.. bored.. i get bored easily it's the reason why i dun agree to go out wid xj more than fortnitely. mayb i just dun like being tied down the reason i realised i got unhappy when xj asked me to go wid him to svc. i dun like commitment to anything or anyone else other than God. everything is just too - predictable. nowadays i regret whenever i make an appointment for something in advace. it's better if i make a decision and just carry it out, at least that way i'll get the thing done.. whether i regret or not is another issue. maybe i'm just jaded. nothing interests me anymore. the things of God? probably.. was observing my own actions and realised for one tt i'm more liberated in front of God. i would spk to strangers bout Him, i would dance, sing and do stupid things for Him but i wouldn go out wid ferlin to take photos wid strangers neither would i sing or do stupid things just listening to secular songs.
hah i seemed to have drifted from my original topic.. i dunno.. i dun have anything left to love with... or mayb there's just no one who can hold my attention anymore.
and i asked God just yesterday.. when will i learn to love again.. and His answer was simple...
when u learn to love me
something to think abt... it's lyrics tt can mean a lot of things..
Life For Rent
I haven't really ever found a place that I call home
I never stick around quite long enough to make it
I apologize that once again I'm not in love
But it's not as if I mind that your heart ain't exactly breaking
It's just a thought, only a thought
But if my life is for rent and I don't lean to buy
Well I deserve nothing more than I get
Cos nothing I have is truly mine
I've always thought that I would love to live by the sea
To travel the world alone and live my life more simply
I have no idea what's happened to that dream
Cos there's really nothing left here to stop me
It's just a thought, only a thought
But if my life is for rent and I don't learn to buy
Well I deserve nothing more than I get
Cos nothing I have is truly mine
While my heart is a shield and I won't let it down
While I am so afraid to fail so I won't even try
Well how can I say I'm alive
If my life is for rent...
holding on to you.
9:42 PM
Monday, July 04, 2005
spent my aft wid xj today.. can't help but wonder abt our relationship.. to say that it was purely brotherly and sisterly would be to simplify things.. yet to say it bordered on the romantic isn't any much closer to the truth... staying tgt for the sake of mutual benefits? not exactly either.. whether there are feelings involved.. possibly... i do love him i guess.. in a strange sense
well... we dun exactly need each other.. we're perfectly happy and fine without each other.. but i suppose after a long time of not seeing/calling each other we would call and complain that the other had not made an attempt to retain contact or that was another person(s) who were keeping us away. most of the time we call when we feel like calling, we meet when we feel like meeting, we hold hands when we feel like it, we buy stuff for each other when we feel like it. it's all unsaid and without commitment. we tell each other bout the girls/ guys in each others life. though we tease each other abt giving less attention to the other.. comparing percentages and numbers.. i really wonder how much we actually bother.. it's not like i feel sad when he tells me that he can only give me 20% of his attention when previously it was 100.. a few days later.. the number rises to 80... i'm not exactly elated either...
we have sort of a common understanding i guess... i go out with him because i like his company and the care that he lavishes.. fulfilling a sort of need for security.. and so our frenship/relationship is maintained by these occasional moods and need for that sort of attention and perhaps by some form of sisterly concern... as for him.. well.. he once said that he just wanted to be there for me until i find someone one day... and so he comes and goes whenever there's someone or noone in my life... frankly speaking i dunno wat's in it for him.. he is after all a very independent person.. perhaps its a brotherly sort of love.. one thing's for sure.... we dun love each other romantically...
i ever asked myself if i would be bothered if he left one day... the answer was no... i think he wouldn be all too bothered too.. mayb we would both have found it a waste... there were times i was so frustrated with his drifting relationship with God that i was willing to let it go completely.. still... he invites himself back into my life... and well.. i dun really have a problem about it... with regards to other pple.. i told him that if he has a gf i would nvr want to meet her or get to know her better... reason being i wouldn think she would be good enough for him... i would be content knowing her by face and retaining a neutral view.. he on the underhand states tt he would want to know my bf when i have one... so he can protect me if the guy's a bad egg... maybe the whole thing is after all bout the male ego...
sometimes i wonder what i've gotten myself into... i've tried to get rid of him.. but he always pops up.. after awhile i find that there's no reason to really chase him away anyway.. i like his company i guess for the lack of restraint and the freedom i'm entitled... i dun have to bother abt his feelings or bother abt plsing him.. we just do as we please... selfish.. maybe... but since we're both happy with such an arrangement.. let it be... it's not as if i'm leading him on or anything.. we both know we're not romantically attached to each other...i guess at the end of the day.. he really is just a friend and a brother who's willing to play the role of something more our of amusement or boredom.... and i on the other hand.. treat it as a sort of distraction...
holding on to you.
3:51 PM
Sunday, July 03, 2005
1 mth embargo finally lifted.. it's a territory of unknown realli.. His wisdom and His strength will carry me through.. well.. i dun feel anything much actually.. that's a gd sign.. considering joining choir again..
there's no fear cause i noe who holds my tmr :)
Take My hand and walk where I lead
keep your eyes on Me alone
don't you say why were the old days better
just because you're scared of the unknown
take My hand and walk
Don't live in the past
cause yesterday's gone
wishing memories would last
you're afraid to carry on
you don't know what's comin'
but you know the one who holds tomorrow
I will be your guide
take you through the night
if you keep your eyes on Me
holding on to you.
11:03 PM
Saturday, July 02, 2005
went skating today with ferlin... manz.. she's evil... made me trip and fall.. and seriously it's not because of wat she said... ( in case u're wondering she said something bout ben and then i like fell... and she kept teasing me ..) anywayz... she was relentless.. "so embarrassing lah u.. skate so fast then fall down" ... :P ..evil woman...
the thing i like abt skating is tt there's a sort of liberty.. i figured i like it when it's wet and smooth and fallable..haha.. it's like u dun do much and u can fly..anywayz.. the evil woman ferlin wanted me to drag her along and every time i try it, it takes a great amt of effort and i nvr get anywhere... er.. mayb 2 cm?
after skating we played pool and then i went to church.. as usual i lost to ferlin at pool.. heh.. but at least i onli lose by like 1 ball nowadays...hee
haiz.. upset at my mum again.. i mean.. i'm not perfect and nvr will be... i'll nvr be wat u want me to be so.. i mean... stay off...stop trying to be perfect not as if u're the perfect mother or we're the perfect family anyway.. far from it.. we're as flawed as we can be and it's not as if u'll ever be perfect....in ur eyes i'll always be a hopeless cause.. so keep it tt way... dun heap expectations on me... i'm a failure to this stupid world anyway...
sometimes i'd rather lead my life the way ian and all of them do it..
holding on to you.
10:11 PM
Friday, July 01, 2005
exams over yest!! yay!!! let me share all the things i did these few days...hee.. went shopping yesterday! bought stuff.. new wallet! haha.. cut my hair... smsed ian.. who intelligently brought his phone in for physics prac.. dunno how he pulled it off.. later in the evening i played scrabble.. ferlin came over and we had fun taking photos and stuff.. man she has a lot of stupid photos of me... so embarrassing.. eeee.. haven't had tt much fun in ages .. today i spent time wid God!!! hee.. gonna spend more time later... i did stuff for ruth and shooj.. and i also went for the gig wid kev.. hee.. i hope he had fun cause i certainly did! .. they're really gd... haha.. and most imptly God was there!.. wheethink ferlin and i will be going skating tmr.. hee.. she wants to go at it for 6 hrs.. manz...
holding on to you.
11:08 PM
