Wednesday, March 23, 2005
yay! cts are over! but i realise i must realli start working hard.. i miss xj... might go visit him tmr... tmr's such a packed day.. meeting my class... then my sch youth grp.. and yes...horror of horrors.. cutting hair... i'm afraid of the blade :P .. fine i'm useless
holding on to you.
10:28 PM
Monday, March 14, 2005
so u mean u assert ur right as the head of the household by scolding anyone and everyone? Just as a ego booster? Just so everyone respect's u?
you know wat? u're pathetic... know wonder i had such a screwed up life... all thanks to u ego boosting, right asserting campaign...
holding on to you.
8:51 AM
Saturday, March 12, 2005
it's a pretty sight - this time of the year. looking out of the window, u see rows of trees, their flowers blooming pink and white. And when the wind blows, the flowers fall, covering the floor with shades of pink...
reminds me of the sakura's in Japan
holding on to you.
5:57 PM
Saturday, March 05, 2005
i think back bout yesterday and i'm wondering what u would have done if i'd said that it wouldn't be alright if u'd leave. maybe u would have stayed.. quite excited bout tmr's lesson... it's a really cool topic... must photocopy lots of stuff for the girls though...
holding on to you.
11:25 PM
Thursday, March 03, 2005
i shall not be jealous... arghz. i can't help it.. i'm annoyed that girls notice him in sch. and i'm annoyed that he doesn't help but continues to tease me.
a typical conversation wid him:
"so is she cute?"
on the phone "no she's not"
simultaneously on msn "she's cute"
it got worse when i asked again and i misread "u think she's cute" as "i think she's cute" .. anywayz i was majorly pissed with his continued teasing..doesn't help tt i came across a blog wid girls gushing bout him.. and no.. i dun blog surf.. it was an accident...
haiz.. i haf to gif him the credit for trying to reassure me at times like saying stuff like "o i've forgotten her name" or type hearts on msn.
teenage angst... i can't stand myself.. i mean nothing's suppose to be going on btwn us.. so why is it coming to this? mayb i should avoid him... sad thing is i'm going to p&p wid him tmr...
watched closer wid ruth today.. gosh.. jude law looks so cute in specs and julia roberts was great.. can't say i like natalie portman wid short hair though i must agree that she looks gd blonde (sorry i disagree wid u abt the black hair ferlin)..n yes.. the other guy(of whom i can't seem to remeber the name) looked terrible...as ruth says "he looks like an ex-convict"... i like the parallels and the themes.. makes u think bout stuff like love and truth/deceit... i was quite uncomfortable wid some parts.. mayb i'm just too conservative... i think ruth was quite disturbed too.. at least i'm not the onli one.
holding on to you.
11:03 PM
haiz... today mark took my phone and went thru my gallery and within 1 min, qns bout xj rained down on me... nonono.. we are not together... haiz... my class feeds too much on scandals.. ah well..
practice today was bad... on the technical side, my solo wasn't all tt bad.. it's just tt i dunno how to add the feelings into by presentation.. mayb like the conductor said.. it could be tt i "li bu chong xin" ...
enuf negative thots....whee... ruth and i are gonna watch closer tmr :)
to ferlin: i apologise for ignoring u online... i noe it's like one of those rare times i actually see u online.. but yes.. i was busy wid my essay... btw.. haf u found a part time job or something? we shud set up our blog soon...
holding on to you.
12:31 AM
Wednesday, March 02, 2005
i'm not fairing very well in school.. or rather... my results are quite extreme... either very gd or very bad.. sometimes i wonder whether it was a mistake i made all this while... i guess i'll just haf to trust in Him and wait out the storm... it's been down down down such tt i've lost sight of the clear blue sky... all's just dark and menacing... haiz...
i'm growing quite attached to dan... the funny thing is we dun really talk... it's just comforting to haf him arnd... he's like so strong silent and reliable... hmmz... mayb not strong...and yes.. his fruit cake smile is ever so endearing..anywayz, just today,it was really quite amusing watching him confront cl wid an invitation to the toilet.
today my classmates were fooling arnd wid my phone and saw some pics of my girls in there. they think my girls are quie cute...... i haf to agree...totally :)
holding on to you.
12:16 AM
