Sunday, January 30, 2005
Before prayer, matthew talked bout how God wanted to kill moses. How shocking.. i had never known that. i realised that if God could kill moses for his disobedience God could kill me. it's really by His grace and His mercy that i'm standing sitting here wid the opportunity to worship Him. this really reminded me to obey God's word and take my walk wid Him seriously.
dun regret going out wid pas becks today... she's really an encouragement. We're too alike in our believes, our experiences, our way of dealing wid pple.. etc... if u think bout it it's kinda scary too...anywayz.. i really thank God for her.
i haf to make certain decisions bout certain things... decisions i'm not too sure i'm ready to make...
holding on to you.
11:27 PM
Monday, January 24, 2005
day of absolute high-ness... giggling thruout the day much to the horror of my fellow classmates.. *grinz guiltily* yes... it was all thanks to the cup of coffee i drank... and well, i did survive.. (that was.. my classmates didn kill me b4 the end of the day)
fussing over random stuff : strange closet relationships.. jazz concerts and self-praise sessions... all in all.. it was fun and enjoyable day
xj is recovering well frm dengue.. on the other hand i'm fallin sick...
score one for law : rh = amia/mamah
holding on to you.
10:36 PM
Sunday, January 23, 2005
haven't blogged the past few days... been pretty happy and relaxed... ah well... not tt i haven't gotten any hw or anything.. due some time later i guess...
on fri i went out shopping wid ferlin.. wasn't tt bad.. wid regards to shopping, i guess it depends on who u go out wid.. it was fun.. i've come to realise that we're both really picky.. after like 3 hrs we bought only one piece of clothing... ferlin says we've got taste... haha... anyway fri i was quite down bout something too... went for a walk wid shaun.. he was really nice and all... at night the guys played mahjong... the amount of water the loser had to gulp down was horrifying... gd thing i didn stay for the whole thing.. i'm such a spoil sport :P
sat svc was gd.. though b4 tt i kept trying to run away frm bro fred... so afraid i'd brk down again.. oh.. joel was really sweet sat nite.. he waited wid me for my bus.... and he's really amusing...esp in the clip.... and on sat.. horrors of horrors.. found out tt xj had dengue... so so worried.... but he was being really sweet even though he was sick and all... hee... quote xj "i think if i keep talking to you i'll recover faster" .. anyway i really do miss him.. promise to treat him next week....
as for today... my girls are such big bullies.. tsk tsk... they cheated during my "test" . ah well...
the night sky today is amazing :) ... went for a walk wid ferlin... both of us agreed tt my mum thinks i'm lesbian... and ferlin is this terrible, bad influence (who's lesbian too) who will get me into drugs and sex and wat not..
holding on to you.
11:12 PM
Wednesday, January 19, 2005
someone did something really freaky to me today... must relax....shudn think too much into things.... mayb i'm just being paranoid... yes.. and sh really hurt my feelings today
i miss xj and ez... yepz.. they miss me too :) .....haiz.... i shud go out wid them some time
i realised i'm terribly spoilt by all the guys... frm younger ones like xj, my neighbours to my classmates and sch mates to all my old men and yi poh....tsk.. no wonder i whine so much. recently my ego's been stepped on just because attention has been shifted to someone else in my co.. gosh i'm so silly... guess tt's wat's been making me so melancholic.
holding on to you.
10:48 PM
Tuesday, January 18, 2005
feeling so melancholic today... i guess a lot of it is just me being selfish... my friendships and relationships are really some things i really need to commit to the Lord.. btw.. thanks yi poh for listening to me...
ramblings
i wonder why i'm being so hyper in school lately.... msut be going mad...haiz.. it's been such a long time since i've played soccer... ferlin looks so strange with those circles all over her neck.... yar.. and she tried to lie to jerome saying that it was some cultic thingy.. freaked him out....
once again i just wanna thank God for all the pple He's put in my life :)
Love u ez ...
holding on to you.
10:36 PM
Sunday, January 16, 2005
shaking crying... it's been and exhaustive day..but it's been refreshing renewing... and yes... filled with joy. The Lord is in the house! and i noe the days ahead aren't gonna get any smoother. still, i thank Him for affirming wat He has set in my heart and i thank Him for those He's put in my life to encourage me .... i'm so amazed how He's had it all planned out. it's only now i see how it hasn't been mere coincidence
i guess i need to take a look at my life again. have been too careless with my words and action. and somewhere along the line i've lost my focus.
so here I am at the foot of the cross
holding on to you.
10:22 PM
Wednesday, January 05, 2005
sometimes i wonder what's gotten into the class. it seems that pple here are suffering from bouts of depression everyday. perhaps it's the loss of some our members to the newcomers. ah well, they will be back in a week. sigh, kitty's off again. i think i'll miss him..btw, my jnrs dun gif up. it's getting kind of irritating with them calling every now and then asking bout random stuff. "random" - a word i realise my class uses a lot. abt my class: the grp of them trotted up to this teacher today and asked him a really strange qn. anyway the teacher was really "put off" so he says. i mean... wat's wrong with being a model?
holding on to you.
10:54 PM
Sunday, January 02, 2005
it's so cold today... feels like Japan :P ...haha wonder if it'll snow.. i mean it's even snowing in the deserts... i realise i'm so gullible... believe wat everyone else says... haiz.. just like wat sh said bout moving to bukit timah in case of a tsunami... haiz..
today was... hmmz.. i dunno.... i guess great! sec 2s are so fun to be with... but some of them dun seem o haf grown... i think i was too paranoid bout something... still... ez shares my concern... then again.. two of us also the same kind one... if i tell my dad he'll just say nvm... ah well...
holding on to you.
10:49 PM
